.: Let Love Emerge :.

hi

2009-10-21T20:28:00.003-04:00

i want to start blogging again. i really do. i was just telling my friend jason about blogger and how easy it is and blah blah blah and then i was like.. wow i am a lowdown dirty hypocrite cause if its so easy and accessible... "whycome" i never use it?

i don't have a good reason. but if you're reading this, you're cool. and i thank you.

let's see what happens. no promises. no expectations. :) i can't hurt you.

Why, Happiness?

2009-02-25T17:55:00.002-05:00

I walked into work today and found that Happiness wreaked it's ugly head at my desk. What a waste of hot pink post-it flags. Geez, Happiness, don't you care about the environment? I'm telling Al Gore. Enough is enough.

Actually, I found it quite charming. I still don't know who did it.... and I kinda want to keep it that way.

A Possible Way to Avoid DirecTV Cancellation Fees

2008-12-31T20:27:00.002-05:00

I'll save you the long and boring story and just provide you with the happy ending.

A firm email sent to directvcustomerhelp@directv.com and ellen.filipiak@directv.com regarding a $320 cancellation fee that was being incurred despite their tech testifying that we could not receive a "line of sight" to a satellite from our building. Within 24 hours I got a response saying the fee was waived.

Remarkable considering the extensive and heated phone conversation a day before, which I am still sparing you.

So, if you have DirecTV issues, which I know many of you do after looking around online for a solution, try sending an email to those 2 addresses.

Seriously, I was surprised it was wrapped up and resolved so quickly.

Vudu Box goes from $299 to $99!

2008-12-30T14:27:00.007-05:00

After reading this blog post by David Pogue, I was SO excited to get a Vudu Box. It's the perfect solution for us. We just moved and were not able to transfer our DirecTV service because the building mgmt doesn't allow satellites to be installed. And most of our favorite shows are on NBC and FOX anyway.

So we decided to get an HD antenna and a Vudu Box. My favorite feature is the ability to search by actor and see a list of movies in which they appear. The database of over 13,000 movies is the largest offered by any similar service and is still growing.

According to the BestBuy sales rep, they are planning on buying out Vudu once a bigger consumer base is built. Because BestBuy is one of the main retailers of DVDs, movie studios are especially cooperative in doling out rights which is why the Vudu database is growing and will continue to grow after the takeover.

Other cool things about Vudu:

- no subscription necessary, you pay as you use
- competetive pricing (new rentals in SD are $3.99, older movies are anywhere from $0.99 -$2.99; purchase price is approx. $19.99)
- watch movies without leaving the house or having to mail them back
- really nice interface and ease of use

Of course, download speed depends on your connection. If you have over 2mbps you can watch the movies "instantly". I will test this tonight.

I should seriously get some commission. But I'm just happy to share this lovely news with everyone. Not sure how long the Vudu box will stay at this price but it's definitely a good deal.

Buyer's Note: The promotional price for buying the Vudu box online with an obligatory $50 movie credit is $149. However, this deal is NOT available in BestBuy or other retail stores. The in-store deal is $299 for $200 worth of movie credits and the box ($99).

Last night, because the Vudu website said nothing about a different in-store deal, I contested the $200 movie credit when they ran me up for $299 plus tax. So the rep called the CFO of Vudu (apparently, he's either "got it like that" or Vudu is seriously small). CFO apologized about the confusion and offered an additional $50 worth of movie credits in addition to the $200. So I basically paid $50 for the box and $250 for $300 worth of credits. Normally, this would all cost $550, so we saved $250.

OK, I'm done now. Go Vudu!

Let's hope I'm not disillusioned once I spend more time with the thing.

Cop Out Post

2008-12-19T16:56:00.002-05:00

I've already posted these to my Facebook, that's why this is a cop out but I want it to be here on my blog as well.

Some sketches I did in high school....

Not sure how I would categorize my style, or if I can.

My Cat on iChat

2008-12-15T22:58:00.003-05:00

He also takes excellent meeting minutes.

The Power of Palsy

2008-12-09T18:20:00.005-05:00

So my mom calls me today and says that she's been having a headache and earache for the last few days and this morning she woke up with one half of her face drooping. OK so of course we think it's a mild stroke. Mild because she didn't complain of any other symptoms or numbness, thank goodness.

I left work, picked her up. She wanted to take an ambulance because she was having an anxiety attack. I was reluctant because she doesnt have insurance and i know the cost of an ambulance service is riDICulous. But she insisted and it was probably best anyway so they could give her oxygen. Plus, my cell phone died the minute I sat in the ambulance, so I had to borrow the EMS guy's phone so it wasn't all bad.

Anyway, the Dr. said because she had no other symptoms, he strongly believes it's just Bells Palsy.

So, we were relieved that it wasn't a stroke or something more serious. The Dr. said it should go away in a few weeks. So we celebrated our relief by doing "Rocky" impersonations and taking pictures of my mom making faces that accentuate the droopy side as much as possible, and then sent it to the rest of our family.

Yeah. We're odd.

Scrappy Memories

2008-12-06T14:51:00.006-05:00

So we're cleaning out all the debris we don't need and I ran into this (the re-discovery of old paraphernalia that means absolutely nothing to almost ANYbody else is my favorite part of moving)

I took a scrap booking session with some friends one night and this is what I made. It was a far cry from the usual family photos in floral frames and little triangles in every corner, but it was mine. And I'm proud of it. :)

The pics were taken in or around 2001. Those were fun times. :sigh: Sadly, they're gone and all of my close friends and I have changed so much and we never even see each other anymore. Drifted apart in more than one way.

This still makes me smile, though. Good times.

Movin' on West...

2008-12-04T21:33:00.004-05:00

We saw a really nice apt in Bloomfield last night. The one in Teaneck wasn't as promising. But this Bloomfield one has these benefits:

- cheaper than what we're paying now but one less bedroom (that we don't need anyway)
- has nice clean laundry room downstairs
- elevator- rent includes garage for 1 car

- heat / hot water included

- huuuuge living room/dining rm area

- bedroom is bigger than our current bedroom

- in a bldg where most apts are condos

so tenants are vested in property and take good care of it
- can paint it whatever colors we want!
- our cats can come!
- 13 miles closer to his job, about the same distance for me as it is now

- beautiful neighborhood, lots of shops, cafes, quaint little stores

***UPDATE: After agonizing over it together and then discussing with my brother and Joyce, we decided to move! Also, I found out that i won't have to pay a toll on the parkway when i get to work.. confirmed by my coworker. We're going to sign the lease and drop off the checks, right now!!!! Yay, I'm excited.

I really hope they give us keys early so we can bring our stuff over in trips, before the 1st.

Also, I told my sister about us moving. She's cool with it. Will miss us of course, but we'll still see her.

****Other UPDATE: We signed the lease. It's official. New place on Jan. 1st.

Any paint color ideas?

Here are some pics....

The Age of Faces

2008-11-30T12:44:00.010-05:00

OK, so I've started another blog. I'm not going to share the address because I kinda want it to be like a private online journal, except I've put no restrictions on it so really, it's public.

It's quite liberating, though. I'm incorporating this idea that was inspired by a YouTube video. Some dude had a video that was basically a buttload of pics of himself, one taken every day for like 3 or so years. It was pretty cool. So I decided to make one blog post every day and include a pic of me from that day. Like a visual journal. To see how the events of the day have affected me, as expressed through my face... and to see how the impacts of those events accumulates over the years. Not sure how long I will keep it up but I think it's a good process for me right now.

Sketchy

2008-11-27T01:07:00.003-05:00

Done in literally, 6 seconds. Yet it oddly resonates with me.

Moods App

2008-11-26T17:34:00.002-05:00

I just downloaded this app called "Moods". You pick a mood face like the one below, every day or whenever you want to make an entry. Then you can also enter a reason for why you feel that way.

It's an easy way to track your moods and daily thoughts without any pressure. It's just another step in my long overdue attempts at documenting my life, possibly for later analysis.

it's probably not as bad as it sounds...

2008-11-25T11:43:00.010-05:00

Today, the weather is making allowances for what would otherwise be "unspeakable grief". It is like a warm mother holding me in her arms and whispering "let it out, my child, let it out...". And I really want to.

I woke up this morning with a deep, dismal groaning inside me. It roused me from sleep by twisting my guts with a slow and methodical pace. I imagine it's the type of feeling one experiences when waking up on the first day after an apocalypse. That hopeless desperation that chokes what should be a scream or a wail. The aimless but frantic roaming of the eyes as they dart across as many points as possible looking to cling to the first thing that makes sense.

The sky is leaky and a monochromatic gray. No matter how much it releases, it is still full. Stuffed with fluffy matter stored up from an unknown place. And I'm not certain how mine got full either. But it is. And it all needs to come out.

But how? Despite refreshing my approach to blogging, I'm still at a crossroads when it comes to displaying emotional vulnerability in a public place like this. It's not to deny its existence because we all have it but there is a time and place for everything. Maybe I'm just not ready. But I will get it out somehow. I have to. Otherwise, it will totally demolish me.

I'm also about three days away from the part of my cycle that begins and ends in bloodshed so I should probably factor that in, too.

Beef Stew: Accomplished!

2008-11-23T20:06:00.004-05:00

Every "serious" blog post, I believe, should be followed up with one of little consequence.

With that in mind... I MADE BEEF STEW! Yup, my mama's beef stew. The kind I adored and would beg her to make when I was younger. It was always such a long process and it would seem like she was slaving over it the whole day. That could partly have to do with the fact that she had to use Vishnu like tactics to keep her 5 kids in check while concocting this meal but it was always well worth it.

So now I've officially made it and I have to say it tastes pretty darn close to hers. She must've handed down some good genes to me. Her detailed instructions didn't hurt either.

Thanks, Mom! I love you :)

A Passing Thought about Shame & Money

2008-11-20T22:14:00.004-05:00

I work with filthy rich people and modestly lower class people. For the last week, someone at my job has had to take the bus to work because they can't afford to pay the mechanic bill and have their car released.

Meanwhile, there are VP's that have multiple houses, cars, children left unattended. The American Dream, if you will. And though they're easily making 6 figures, they try their best to stay grounded and in touch with "the little guy". They do a decent job of it, too. In fact, one of my bosses drives a Ford Freestyle that I have yet to see clean. It draws little to no attention because it's not much to look at. I'm sure this is intentional and is probably the least expensive of all his cars. I respect that he sacrifices affordable luxury for utilitarian simplicity all for the sake of being more accessible. I have even wondered if these financially blessed people are ever ashamed of their wealth while they are among the skilled laborers in weathered construction vests, or while talking to foreman who give off that special hint of something extra as they pass by.

After thinking about it for a bit, I came to this simple conclusion:

People should never be ashamed of how much money they have or do not have. What is worthy of their pride or shame is how they received what they have, be it riches or poverty.

Holy Smoke!

2008-11-20T15:16:00.001-05:00

Don't worry, don't worry. I'm ok.

But geeez. Looks like the L O S T monster that we haven't seen in 3 seasons.

Best License Plate Ever

2008-11-19T16:59:00.005-05:00

I was stopped behind this guy at the light when I did a double take!

It's the best license plate ever. So friendly. Got a rainbow, says "Aloha State".

Then I realized he must've had his car shipped here. Then thought of how rare this must be. It's like finding a four leaf clover, or calling a support desk for an electronic product and NOT getting an indian person, or getting a cup of anything at Dunkin Donuts that's filled more than 3/4ths, or someone sending your lost wallet back to you (PLEASE! Whoever you are!).

Have any of you ever seen a Hawaii license plate, "in the flesh"?

An Evening with Poe

2008-11-16T22:52:00.006-05:00

"Imagine a moonlit night, the towering pines surrounding Mount Hope cast a mysterious shadow upon the sandstone fortress. An expressionless servant invites you inside. The year is 1849. While Walking one night through the dark and dreary streets of Baltimore, Mr. Edgar Allan Poe falls into a rabid coma and wakes to find himself, along with a handful of his most bizarre characters, in an Asylum in the South of France."

That's the description of the "experience" (not show) as posted on www.parenfaire.com.

While I wasn't completely teleported into the past, it was the absolute perfect night for such an event. There was a torrential downpour earlier in the day. The night was immersed in a frosty chill. The sky, a deepest shade of "pitch". And it was in Pennsylvania. Though places ending in "sylvania" have their own variety of spook, this place has a unique way of keeping the past frozen in time. It's eerily colonial.

When you walk into the mansion, and you enter... an experience. Immediately, you are encountered by the asylum "inmates". They are in full, unbreakable character and pretty entertaining. The "head nurse" takes your tickets with a mug like clay pressed with the Creator's hands to fit the part.

The group is then divided into three parts and sent to separate rooms. The first one we went to was for an enactment of "The Tell Tale Heart", by a female, surprisingly. Her performance was amazing. She kept accessing all of this raw emotion and it filled her face undeniably. The rhythm of her passionate and crazed monologue was guided by precision and was more enveloping as a result.

Then we went into a room resembling a study where and OCD character recited Poe's "Berenice". The prose was so wordy and long winded with a speedy execution that it was hard for me to follow. The wine from dinner didn't help either, I'm sure. However, I was overtaken by this guy's gestures. I would not be surprised if he really had OCD. His eyes also bulged randomly which lent to the characters awkward desperation. Overall, a good job.

Lastly, we entered the room where "Poe" and an unnamed female character performed "The System of Doctor Tarr and Professor Fether". Their chemistry was entertaining and the sound effects were well timed, which always helps.

Afterwards, some poems were recited. One of the especially demented inmates performed "The Bells" with a strong variety of vocal tones. For me, he stole the show. He conveyed the downward development and increasingly haunting message of "The Bells" remarkably. At one point, I thought he was... a bell.

Following that was Poe's performance of "The Raven". It seemed to be fueled with the inspiration of last performance of the season but more inspiring was what he said afterwards when he addressed the audience. He thanked us for supporting the oral tradition and being part of its continuation. He also encouraged us to reach out to others with it; to approach children and tell them a story or sing them a song or just share a joke because they will remember it and even if they laugh at you, they will appreciate it later. He closed by saying -

"Be brave for them. Share of yourselves. They need you."

On the Road

2008-11-15T16:45:00.001-05:00

We're on our way to meet up with friends for "An Evening With Poe" in Pennsylvania.

Review to follow.

Columbus Circle dot dot dot

2008-11-15T02:52:00.011-05:00

Took this shot last week right before the Conor Oberst concert. It was one of the only pics I took with my beloved nikon that night as I was forced to bring it to the coat check.

The short conversation between the security guard and myself went something like this:

*Warning: Slight exaggerations may occur due to memory loss.

Guard: "You gotta check that."

Me: "Check what?"

Guard: "That camera." (points to camera poorly hidden beneath my open hoodie)

(I fake shock because the lady 15 ft. away already told me)

Me: "But I don't understand, why can't I bring my camera? I checked the internet and it said it's ok."

Guard: "The artist doesn't want any photos taken with those types of camera inside."

Me: "What types of cameras exactly?"

Guard: "You know, those. The ones that take film."

Me: "Oh nonono, this camera doesn't take film. It's just digital." (hey, it was worth a shot)

Guard: "Well, whatever. He doesn't want those (points). The little ones are ok, though."

Me: "So basically he only wants crappy shots of himself."

Guard: "Right."

Me: (not so under my breath) "Thanks, Conor Oberst."

So anyway, Columbus Circle is nice this time of year.

This is a shot I took after I retrieved my camera from the coat check. A really lame way of "stickin' it to the MAN". I'm so dangerous. Please. Someone stop me.

Oh, and this is Edie who made it all worth while.

What In The....?

2008-11-14T12:20:00.002-05:00

My buddy Jeremy introduced me to this page with bizarre vintage ads. WeiRd.

What Goes On In Her Mind

2008-11-14T10:36:00.001-05:00

Really, folks. She's not evil. I promise.

This Could Be Me

2008-11-13T18:10:00.000-05:00

...if the text is the right size after my last tweaking.

Formatting Check

2008-11-13T17:48:00.002-05:00

Is it large?

The only thing left to seal the deal is for me to find out if/how I can feature music on my blog.

Testing Mobile Uploads!

2008-11-13T17:32:00.003-05:00

Seriously? If this works I will easily be persuaded to switch to blogger permanently.

Best case scenario - that the formatting will match previous posts.